Archive for April, 2013

And the truth is…

I miss you! I miss you all the time!
My life just hasn’t been the same since you left. You made me feel so sincerely and ridulciously happy all the time.

He may be my ghost, but you… you are the person that I miss so much that it hurts. I wish you’d haunt me!! I wish your voice was still in my head because it made me better.

I wish I could have leapt across the country to be with you. It was so what I wanted to do more than anything. To drink wine in our pajamas. And Cali was my dream. You would have been this amazing bonus.

I was a coward. I was afraid of failing. And I was afraid that you found me far more flawless and appealing from 3000 miles away.

The moment you saw a flaw in me, you disappeared. So maybe my fear wasn’t so unfounded.

It wasn’t all you though. I was scared. It didn’t know what I would do if you weren’t there anymore.

I miss you. So much that it hurts. And my life just hasn’t been the same without you.

One olive branch at a time…

I miss him. So much sometimes. He was my best friend. He was there during this time where I had no one else to talk to honestly. He made me smile and laugh. Even from miles away.

So yea! I miss him!!

And every once in a while, I send him a text. Saying hi. Sometimes I say I miss him.

And sometimes I get no response. Great. Awesome. He hates my guts and doesn’t plan on acknowledging me.

But sometimes he responds. And even if the responses are somewhat frosty, at least… he responded.

And I keep trying.